(I just copied the desc. from my picture...)


Zen is DEAD. Gone FOREVER.

let me explain:

I created zen, and she screwed up my life. I created her from the fursona bandwagon. Then I got into the dark side of fursonas.

Unwritten rules of fursona fad:
1. have a fursona
2. things you must hate:
a) pink
b) girly stuff
c) preps
d) anything popular/normal
e) pop music
f) sunlight
g) physical activities
h) bright/ happy things
i) bright colors
3. things you must love:
a) darkness
b) pain/suffering
d) any music not normal (death metal, techno ect)
e) videogames
f) anime
g)dark colors
h) being nerdy
i) anything that makes normal people uncomfortable around you


Zen was not artistic. She was just a retarded dragon I created to fit in with the fursona community. All the pictures of her can be found in almost any other teen fursona artist's gallery, just done with their own characters. She was never art. She was unoriginal and uncreative, and I hate her. (Not trying to downtalk anyone who likes their fursonas. This case probably isn't the same for everyone. I'm explaining my opinion with my situation.)

This whole thing had a profound effect on my offline life. At school I was a social loser. I dressed like a boy, and went out of my way to be nerdy and weird. I refused to wear any girl clothes, and any clothes that actually fit. I walked around in baggy clothes, and could have made more friends. But this subculture makes enemies of people who could have been friends. I didn't talk to people who wore pink, and I hated all preps.

The funniest thing is that the fursona subculture says- DON'T JUDGE ME UNTIL YOU KNOW ME. In fact this culture is one of the most judgemental. They hate all preps just for their outward appearance. Many of those preps are actually very nice once you get to know them.

Another thing the fursona subculture is big on is BE CREATIVE. BE UNIQUE. Many fursonas are not unique though. They seem to come in categories- dark, cutesy, acid (neon colors, glowsticks ect). Dark is what zen was. She was also very nerdy and completley uncreative. I thought I was so creative being all gloom and doom, when infact I was just conforming to an internet society. I had become Zen, not Mollie.

In truth, I've never liked videogames (except HALO), but I forced myself into playing them. Pink is one of my favorite colors, and I love flowers, sunlight and surfing. Once you TRULEY stop caring what everyone else thinks, you'll be suprised of what you'll discover.

As for the picture, Zen is dead. That phase of my life is over. The light (my future) is breaking up the darkness (my past). I have broken free of the past, and am going into the light. I have been liberated. I am free. I don't need ANYTHING to tell me who I am, or what I should like. I am MOLLIE, and I don't need ANYTHING to mask that anymore. I am FREE. I am ME. I am MOLLIE. Just plain Mollie.

My new art account is here:

For the most part, I'm leaving my old art here because I am too lazy to go through and delete it all off. And I doubt anyone will be trying to rip me off. But I will take a few of my favorites.